December 2017

Only a week left before we embark the year 2018, insya Allah, with His Blessings, we may breathe the air of 2018. Masya Allah. I just feel we have just entered 2017. How do I really wish and hope that I can do it this coming new year, to inspire my children to love knowledge by more reading. To stop gadget sounds impossible, but to lessen time together with gadget sounds possible. So how's your preparation for school 2018?

November Rain..

The season has come- novembar rain. Masya Allah. I love the rainy weather. November 2016- it has been ages since the last visit my the professional body to the Faculty which I attach at the moment. Their last visit was November 2013- 3 years had passed. Why it takes so long??

October 2016

Masya Allah, it is almost seven months, since my last visit to this blog. It is just like a dream, when my late husband, passed away on 3 March 2016 (3/3/2016)- three minutes before 12 mid nite. Jumaah sayidul ayyam ( the blessed day of Jumaah), his sudden death, really make me speechless. Redha and tawakkal for what I have seen and it is not easy to cope with this. My concern is the little one, Farha was three years and six months at that time, my second son, Fatih, is gonna face UPSR, a big exam for him. The eldest, Faris, looks ok, but not sure, how does he cope inside? Fakhri- lost tempered regularly- it was tough for him and me too. Life goes on. It is a gentle reminder from Allah- everyone will taste death one day. For this, I really hope and pray, we try to improve our good deed. Missing him badly- in memoir of Mohamad Zahar bin Sulaiman. ( 1973- 2016).

Azam dan terus berazam.

Ya dalam kehidupan, perlu nyatakan tawakkal kepada Ilahi, pencipta seluruh Alam. Setiap hari dan detik, cuba sematkan semangat dan terapkan erti suatu azam. Semoga diri ini bertambah baik, perbanyakkan ibadah, solat pada awal waktu, menunaikan puasa sunat. Menjadi mama yang baik dan prihatin, isteri yang solehah dan bertimbang rasa. Banyak sungguh keazaman ini dan pastinya setiap hari, ianya harus dibisik dan disemat dalam diri yang serba kekurangan dan kedaifan. Apa yang pasti, esok tetap di tangan Tuhan...

Ramadan al Mubarak 1436H

alhamdulillah, being grateful that you have the opportunity to embrace ramadan, the blessed month and fasting month for Muslims.

February- March 2015

I wonder how do you feel, leaving your kids in Taska, just to go to work. Yet, life is not affordable to be jobless. Motherhood should be cherished and lauded by all mothers. It should teach us on "how life would be" as a mother. In today's competitive world, mothers try to compete a place at work and a place at their children's heart. After all, life is not a bed of roses but it is a field to test and challenge your faith- Keep the faith!

Happy New Year 2015

Yesterday was a history, it seems quite some time not updating this blog. Masya Allah, may 2015 marks a blessed year not only for me, but all out there. 2014 marked the dark history for Malaysia, lost plane MH370, plane MH17 was shot down, and recovered, a big flood in Kelantan, Pahang and Terengganu- it was like little Tsunami. Ya Allah, forgive us. May we learn something from this incident.

How time flies

Masya Allah, it seems ages since the last entry in this blog. Life is full of ups and downs. Classes sometimes don't make you realize how time flies. We visited England last April, eventhough it was a very short break, 7 days including traveling but deep down in my heart, I enjoyed it! Of course, it is not easy to travel with four kids, aged 11 years old and 9 months, it was a fantastic holiday school for the boys, especially Faris and Fatih who were down in memory land, flash back their stay in Stoke-o-Trent for almost 4 yours. Alhamdulillah, Ya Rabb, for giving us the chance to visit Stoke-on-Trent. When we arrived in Heathrow airport, the weather was extremely cold. Farha my little girl@baby seemed to enjoy the weather despite she just being discharged from hospital a few days before the journey. She looked very healthy and seemed to like the cold weather. Well, the land was full of snow, and we stayed in Travelodge near Stoke-on-Trent. We met our old friend in Stoke, Kak Nun and Abang Nik at their home in Grove Street. I really miss Kak Nun's super delicious, curry lamb. We had dinner on the first day of visit and also lunch during the farewell at their house. Seven days seem too short as many places need to be visited. We visited Manchester and also Birmingham to visit my supervisor. Despite the heavy traffic, alhamdulillah, we managed to arrive at her home safely. Insya Allah, perhaps, there is another visit near future.

April 2013

April comes again, it is birthday month for my beloved Baba, my second sister, my eldest son and the day before April marks the fourth birthday of my third son. Alhamdulillah, my doa and prayers to all of them who make my life meaningful. Especially, my father, Baba who has been the inspiration for my success. Well, I am still struggling to be a successful mama, who is meticulous in raising kids. It is also a challenging month, my third son was admitted to the hospital due to food poisoning, luckily, not so severe compared to the previous experience. Ya Allah, give us the strength to raise our children!

2013

It seems ages I have visited this blog. Busy juggling between family and work. Having four kids and the youngest is an infant is an enjoyable process as everyday is not a routine. Everyday is always a new chapter that I learn a new thing! alhamdulillah. After six months of delivery, I am a little bit settled. Well, my agenda is to qada my Ramadan. Masya Allah, I may tell you, it seems challenging and may Allah grants me the strength to be a better mama, a lovely wife and a nice daughter. Wishing the best for 2013, as December marked awal Muharram for the Muslims.

Sabar itu sukar

Kesabaran memang mudah diungkap dengan mulut, hakikatnya sukar juga untuk amalkan selalu. Sukar untuk dibicarakan, apatah lagi pelbagai tafsiran boleh dibuat apabila ditulis di dalam ruang yang sempit ini. Cuma pujuk2 lah hati agar terus bersabar. Dilahirkan dengan kurang skil membodek dan menaik taraf diri sendiri, akhirnya apa jua hasil daripada ku, pada pandangan orang lain, buruk belaka. Nak buat macamana? Sabar jelah...

September 2012

How time flies, my little princess is almost 3 month and her big brother, Fakhri is now back to school. After Syawal break, I decided to drive him to school. It was not easy for him. Alhamdulillah, Fakhri is back to school!

Ramadan 1434 H

Ramadan datang lagi, 2012, perasaanku berbaur, bercampur-campur, yang pastinya, aku akan berpantang pada masa itu.  Alhamdulillah, atas kurniaan Mu Ya Allah, seorang puteri akhirnya. Selepas tiga putera, aku pun tidaklah mengharap sangat, bagi ku putera ke puteri, ianya satu amanah dan tanggungjawab buatku dan suamiku. Mudah-mudahan, Allah memberiku kekuatan untuk menjadi ibu yang lembut dan baik kepada anak-anaknya.

Confinement days

What is confinement?
In Malay, known as berpantang. Well, for those who have the experience in delivering baby, they will know how challenging it was, that's why, some people called it labour room. The pain, the excitement, it is difficult to describe the feelings. (that's me). The challenging part in confinement is to religiously follow the dos and ignore the donts. Discipline is essential in confinement.
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Farhaturasyidah 3 July 2012

Alhamdulillah, during the 40th  week check up, the O & G doctor found symptoms for delivery. After sending my boys to school including the little boy Fakhri ( I promised him to accompany me to hospital) but the father managed to carry him to the class. The night before, I pity Fakhri as he was still small 3 years and does not speak very well, deep down, I guess he will be traumatized by the existence of his little sister ( if the scan's result  is correct, we should be expecting a baby girl). Pregnancy at this time is very challenging, I did not plan to have one though I have stopped taking depo for 10 months when I felt my body is growing like a balloon. Well, a gift from Allah and alhamdulillah, I did not expect it is going to be a girl. I was not so happy during the pregnancy, so many things happened ( that I want to keep it as personal and lessons for myself). May Allah guides me in making the decision.

35 th week

Alhamdulillah, I have reached 35th week of pregnancy. Life is little bit daunting, hopefully, it will be clearer before delivery, insya Allah. Just instilling positive thoughts as motivation. Sometimes, it is easily said than done. Well, I guess the baby will come out in mid June. Doa and prayers, may Allah grant me the strength to overcome this feeling. Perhaps being too sensitive during pregnancy makes me feel a little bit daunting.

Morning sickness or all day sickness

Expecting the fourth baby is not easy, as I need to face with the usual and prolonged morning sickness, I guess it is not only in the morning
But it is the whole day. Alhamdulillah, despite the sickness, I managed to handle vital tasks being assigned to me. I believe this baby will bring rezeki to the work that I have done.

Happy Holiday my dear sons

My two young boys are away for a holiday and also with a mission to accompany my sis coming back for good to Malaysia. I know sometimes Faris and Fatih miss the ups and down life in England. They know how difficult to get halal food and in most cases, we have to read the labels with extra care just to ensure that we can consume the food. My husband and I have been trying our best to instill the importance of taking halal food and also tayiba. The challenge is when we come back to Malaysia, we assume everything is halal. Faris has been arguing that logo halal issues by JAKIM is the only logo that we should trust, he reads a lot, not only Upin Ipin comic but also news and gossips (I guess)..My doa is hopefully that they are having a great time of school holiday- a week in London..(my body is here in malaysia but my mind is in Edgware Road, London)..:)

November 2011

Alhamdulillah, November comes. It is a meaningful month not only for me but also for all members in the family. Congratulations to my little sister for grabbing the title Dr. the new addition in the family. It is only a beginning and hope life will be better. 2011 flies so fast, and I have been thinking deeply what have I done all these months. Time also to move and hopefully, I have the chance to ziarah Makkah and Madinah soon. Insya Allah, pray for me and all Muslims around the world. Life is meaningless without His Blessings and Barakah.

Backbiting and slander

Recently, a professor told me that backbiting is a serious matter in our institution. Any reasonable man knows that backbiting is not only serious but also against the Islamic teaching. Working in an institution which upholds the word Islamic- it is challenging, as it is not easy to reflect as what our name carries! Backbiting not only make people or community divided but we become more suspicious towards each others. Nobody is perfect but we aim to improve our deeds everyday by performing solat five times a day. As a muslim we are encouraged to be forgiving. Life is too short for us to backbiting. In some circumstances, backbiting may amount to slander. At the end of the day, we hope not only to preserve our relationship with the Creater, Allah s.w.t but also with other mankind. Insya Allah.